I was running last night, pondering God's love for us and the ways He's been working in my life lately, and I had a somewhat startling realization.
I have friends who struggle with homosexuality. I have other friends who would never admit that it's a struggle, but whose lives reflect the pain they're running from. Masked by drug use, alcohol abuse, and the frenetic professional lives they lead, they've spent the majority of their twenties in turbo gear, never stopping to look too closely or reflect too deeply. I guess it's working out okay, for the time being, but I shudder to think of the day when the world slows down and the inevitable confrontation in the mirror demands a reckoning of the sum of one's lived existence.
Maybe I'm way off, and maybe they're happier than they let on. But is their happiness based on reality?
All this was on my heart while I pounded the trail last night, marveling at the beauty that surrounded me, silently thanking the Author of that beauty for His generous creativity. At that moment, the entire concept of nature struck me as ridiculously indulgent - how like a Father to create something so beautiful primarily for his children's enjoyment.
I wondered whether fatherhood might be God's greatest creative act, but then dismissed it, reasoning that His Fatherhood of Jesus is an uncreated sort, not "creative" in the sense of the word most familiar to mere mortals. But His Fatherhood of us... that's something different entirely, a consummation of the creative power of the Creator of all, perfected in what He dubbed His "image and likeness."
Wow. I guess that would qualify fatherhood as something of particular importance. I turned this over in my mind, wandered off topic and back to the question of homosexuality, and was suddenly (though not literally) stopped dead in my tracks.
"If fatherhood - parenting - is the consummate creative act of God, and we are created in His image and likeness, than in this capability we find our fullest expression as well." Wow. So parenting is next to godliness. And not just natural parenting, either, but the labor invested in spiritual mother and fatherhood as well. So there are some who are called to relinquish this great good for the sake of the kingdom, (sound familiar?) but not without great cost and personal sacrifice.
Would it follow, then, that God would intentionally create particular human beings without the capability to participate in parenthood? I wasn't thinking in terms of infertility, here, as the inability to conceive naturally is certainly an involuntary poverty and a lack of a good, but in terms of homosexuality. As in, "God made me this way, and I can't help it."
So God purposely left some of His children out of the loop?
I realize this is a lot of "if/then-ing," but if parenthood is God's greatest creative act (and we know that it is) and if our status as His images and likenesses make us, well, like Him, then should it not follow that we find our greatest fulfillment and the fullest expression of human creativity in parenting?
I am not (and I stress this, not) implying that having children is the sole means to personal fulfillment, or that persons who cannot - either by nature or circumstance - have children are lacking in any way.
What I am saying is that a good God would not create an intrinsically exclusive subgroup of humanity unable to fully participate in His divine life by means of participation in His creative love.
I just think He would have figured something out, with all that thought He put into bringing us into existence. And I don't think it would be so hard to live a homosexual lifestyle if it were something He truly wanted for us. And despite the lies and the parody prevalent in the media, Christianity really is all about inclusion, not exclusion. We're working on building a family, here, not drawing enemy lines.
Just a thought, this, but one that left me quite breathless. Or maybe that was the run.